Continuing on.
Living with a chronic illness, which has no cure, as I have said before is a difficult thing to do. And unless you live in chronic pain or are chronically ill - I am not sure you can ever truly appreciate what someone goes through on a daily basis. Now that doesn't mean that I don't think that you can't possess empathy for that person - wanting to help me them, pray for them, etc. - I just think there is no way that you could know everything that feel and deal with.
As someone who lives with chronic illness and pain - I don't necessarily want everyone to know everyday what I am thinking or feeling though. It's not because I am embarrassed. It's not because I don't want someone to be educated about my illness. It's simply because in that moment - I am trying to continue on with a normal life.
There are times in my journey where something new is determined in my prognosis or something just knocks me for a loop - in those moments I do not want to talk about anything. I need time to adjust and to absorb this new information and figure out what my new 'normal' now means. And once I get past that hump - I'm in continuing on mode.
That is where I am at right now. My life is too busy and full of too much stuff for me to get wallowed down in deep thought about my illness. If I allow my mind to go down that path right now, my life will be disrupted. Right now is not a time for me to shut down and process. There are times when that is appropriate - right now is not one of them.
Time to stay strong.
Time to stay positive.
Time to focus on other things.
Time to feel normal.
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